wardly struggle at the unwanted\rattention. If he ever noticed or was bothered, he never let on. It was\rdifficult to coordinate our steps his halting, mine impatient---and because\rof that, we didn' t say much as we went along. But as we started out, he\ralways said, “You set the pace, I will try to adjust to you. " 11\r[B]\rAlone now, the widow reads considerably. She used to underline favorite\rpassages to share with her husband. Now, in a notebook, she stores quotations\rlike this one from Elizabeth JolleyJ s Cabin Fever: "I experience again the\rdeep-felt wish to be part of a married couple, to sit by the fire in winter\rwith the man who is my husband. So intense is this wish that if I write the\rword husband on a piece of paper, my eyes fill with tears. " 12